to my mom

to my beloved mother, happy birthday.. ^^... sweet 36..mom u r getting old..please be more mature than me...lol..^^'..actually i'm not a very good daughter... always break her heart n make her cry at night.. but i do love her n that's for sure..mom, even i'm not always be right by your side shed all your tears..or when you down and i just watch from aside when you cry...it does make me sad n i felt guilty..i can't sleep thinking about your tears n your sad face..i'm sorry mom...i really sorry..when i yelled at you.. i felt like i wanna slap myself for being rude to you..when i see you work till late night, i felt like i wanna cry.. i turned around n shed my tears.. i never want you to see me cry.. i want you to see me as a strong girl.. your strong girl... that nothing could break her.. and when i see a smile on your tired face, i really felt guilty... cause i'm not a flying colour student.. and i'm being a burden for you.. i really want to become a better person... a daughter u'll be proud of.. a daughter that will stand up for her sisters n brother.. i'm almost being an adult now..*gosh..hardly believe i'm 20 this year!!* i want to be that person.. who will protect my family n take all the responsibility as the oldest daughter..that person that will bring joy n happiness to our family...n just remeber, no matter how far we apart in the future and who i'll become in the future i will always love you the most n cherishing u mom forever...hope i can give u a better live soon..a lot better than we had now..i promise u i am always ur daughter no matter who i am in the past n who i am in the future.. always now and forever.. kisses n hugs from your daughter.. hope u always be bless.. hope u always smile till the last day of your live... i just wish i could be a better daughter n myb nicer toward you..hehehehe